Monday, October 25, 2010

a living disgrace

if you can't be a human, you can't be a teacher... you are a waste. wonder why God created you.

dedicated to the rotten presence of that idiot on the face of the earth...

Mom, dad, PS: I mean this post... i cannot be "sweet" in this post

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Get a life, Losers!

(Disclaimer: the blame charges are against losers, not against the readers.)

In my college here, we go for a field trip, except that, the theme park is a power plant. I enjoy it, so, it's like a field trip. We are split into two batches, first of which is supposed to start by 8, but due to factors like us coming late the breakfast preparation getting delayed, the bus getting delayed, delayed, delayed, delayed, the start is delayed to 8 30, 8 45 or even 9. And after a trip of an hour, thanks to the circumnavigation around the city to pick up the faculty, we reach the power plant that's outside the city limits. So, that'll be around 10 am. And after a mini lecture every day from the faculty, we are on our own to wander in the "theme park", instructed to assemble back for departure by 12:40 pm.

It so happened today that a few guys from the other batch joined us without prior intimation. And a few guys from a pvt. company (X) also had a plant visit today. All in the same bus. Some guys had to stand all the way during the travel. After the visit, when we were to return back, I noticed the bus filling up with the returning students. Me and my little group found some vacant seats and sat down, tired (also had some tasty kachodis). And then, the reason for this post propped up.

Apparently, one guy from that company, X, was "sitting where mr B" was sitting" earlier in the day. So, mr B was angry at mr C (of M/S X). And then B and C had an exchange or words, and then swear-words etc fists and punches though. And then the crowd takes sides. No one knows what's happening, but wants to take sides. What should've been a quarrel between B and C, turns out to be a war between people from A and the guys from my college! And, my colleagues won't get into the bus sighting the people from X as the reason! When the faculty comes to resolve the issue, they complain "those people were sitting in our places... we sit there every day. and he was using abusive words at us when we spoke to them. we won't board the bus until they get down. and only we should sit, and they should stand. it is our bus, not their's.". And then, the colleagues sitting inside the bus get down to "support" "our guys". I was sitting in the bus, watching this head-splitting, nerve twitching, hunger building nonsense... I was too tired to even slap the two idiots who started it.

And this goes on for 40 minutes! Not getting on a bus for something as dumb as "he was sitting on 'my' seat". These guys are 24-28 years old! And they make a scene like kindergarten kids who pissed on each other!


The faculty suggested that some can adjust, and stand during the journey, it won't kill anyone. That was pretty just comment. But that got one response - "we are engineers, we won't stand". I felt like bashing that idiot that time. Like as if everyone else were lesser human beings...

And these people, wanting all from our batch to get off the bus in strike/protest, were in my sense complete idiots! Two idiots start quarreling and I would have to take sides... Why should I? I have the God given gift of respecting myself, and taking my own decision to sit in the comfortable bus!

Some guys were wanting to get down. I asked one of them, "why do you even want to get down?" (and take the risk of getting back to college at your own risk by boarding and switching a couple of buses en-route which will delay the return by at least an hour...not to mention spending for that stupid journey, while the travel expense fees have already been paid for the inst bus!) And his answer was, " if we don't get down, those those people will corner us. they won't talk to us, they won't support us if need arises, they will cause problems to us". This guy was so afraid! To be honest, I was afraid of no one! No one meant a bit to me, and I am in no way gonna be afraid of any silly idiot who wants me, for no reason, to get off the bus, for which I've duly paid.

People are just afraid! They can't stand for themselves. They just can't say, I'm "this" and I'm proud to be "this" in spite of what you may think, and I am not afraid of your comments. I was thinking it may be a weakness in some angle, but no, I think it's a big positive to have my own opinion and stand by it, if not being so meant being an indecisive chicken!

Now, the loser of the day, Mr L... He jumps out of the stationary bus through the emergency window to join to commotion! And after five minutes of not understanding what was happening (clearly because he doesn't understand the language they were talking...correction, I meant quarreling)! And he comes near the bus, pokes me and says "C'mon, get down!". I politely asked "why should I?". And he just swore at me and left! Give me a reason, you damn idiot... I may have something to ponder upon... But no, Mr. L just wanted me to listen to him! For some reason which even he didn't know! So, the next lines are for that loser Mr. L and for any other loser who fits the example :-

"If you have no reason to talk, no reason to play on, no reason to stand on your filthy feet, don't you dare bloody try to fling me in your direction. You are just a puppet, with no brains, played by someone else, knowingly or unknowingly. Wear a hat that spells "DUNCE", go to one isolated corner of the world, and don't you bloody dare open you mouth to utter a syllable, because your tongue is not speaking your words, but the words of your puppet player... You are owned. Your body and mind is sold out to someone else. You are a slave, and you have no courage to break out of it. YOU.ARE.A.BORN.LOSER.! And you deserve being called a loser. You not only lost everything, you do not have a desire to win anything. You just go by words or others, nod when they say something and nay when they say a negative and look for that response on your face.".

And before you jump to conclusions of me having personal vengeance against that L(oser), let me tell you that I have nothing of that sort against him...but I know him long enough to tell you that he is a loser!

Stand on your feet for what you are! Not what you are made to feel like, not what you are made to look like by someone else. If you are walking the other way, continue walking without hitting the breaks. You will be bumped by many as you walk against them. But, once they know how strong you are, they will make way for you! Don't be a loser, be a winner!

For all my boldness, inflexible attitude, I've lost a lot people who pretended to be my friends, for which I am not sad about...but rather happy that I don't have to have any hypocrites on my list of friends. Those who accepted me for what I am, are great pals to have! And they know that I am not the kind of guy who makes cock and bull stories of such themes! If I do find something wrong, I am not afraid to tell it out. good or bad. I can't add gloss to something that's ugly, sorry!

Nevertheless, I am hoping for a good new day tomorrow. Looking forward to playing in grease, oil, ash, coal and soot. climbing on vertical ladders to open tanks, looking into furnaces, watching the ground RIGHT BELOW my feet from 50m height, standing at a spot not knowing if it is going to be a spark or a bucket load of ash. Didn't I tell you it was a field trip? It's an enjoyable field trip to one of my favourite theme parks :-)

Friday, October 15, 2010


Why do you think one would want reservation, or demand reservation, or lets say, politely, request reservation?

Is there a need that gets pacified with reservation? Does the pace of work improve with reservation? Is there an improved assurance of something, some work to be completed? Does it simplify things? Why do we see reservation everywhere? Why?

This is my answer.
In a word.


You fear that you are not going to get something with what you have, but you want to have it, and thus ask for a relaxation. In a world of competition, that is the world of incompetency.

There can be plenty of examples, and I will project my views on some of them. Open for like, dislike, "for"s, "against"s, discrimination dot dot dot.

Random beginning.

Why is there a "Ladies' Quota" in the Indian railway reservation system? I'm still bamboozled by this. I can understand ladies' coaches, usually in local/MRTS sort of trains, where women need some privacy. But in the general long distance trains I've NEVER seen a ladies' coach! So, why the reservation? If you think that "all the men fight their way to the reservation counter and book the tickets in a jiffy that we women don't get tickets" (understandably so, women are physically not as strong as men), then you must be looking for a reservation counter for the ladies. Fair enough? I feel so. Same goes for senior citizen. But for an elder, I would rather save him/her trouble and give a reservation.

Ah well, staying with "Ladies' Quota", what is your opinion about the 33% women bill? If you ask me, it was a big projection of the fear in the women. Either they are snubbed from participating openly, in which case they are weak and crying for help, or they are having a bit of ego issues against the men. Let me tell you this, if you are forcibly going to make a woman stand up to politics and face the world much against her will, she is not going to be effective. NOT AT ALL! You know that same old horse taken to the pond story (which I keep hearing from people everyday, like they ran out of inspirational stories), you can make her win the vote, but then she has to represent you all. Its not like the woman candidate represents the women of the society. So, why this bill? I, as a feminist, would love to see women come up in politics, take their own decisions in a sensible manner for the betterment of the nation. But, not by force. I do not mind what number they come in. 33%...50%...or even more? Its our country. And we are people. Why discriminate?

And what is this number? "33"! Are you fixing a cap on the capabilities of the women? Are you telling them - "ladies, you can't do more than that... you can't contribute more than 33% to the country"? You know so many great women who were better than men of their era. be it in politics or business or otherwise. You think there are no more Indira Gandhi 's and Indira Nooyi 's and Lata Mangeshkar 's and Rani Laxshmibai 's around? If men can stop bullying the ladies and black mailing, and if ladies can be that bit more determinent, I am sure we semi-blind people can see what we could not earlier.

Moving a touch upwards, the big topic - reservation based on caste and community.

the Constitution of India says "The Union of India is a sovereign, socialist, secular, democratic republic, assuring its citizens of justice, equality, and liberty and, to promote among them all, fraternity."

For one minute, close your eyes, think, think if that phrase has been justified yet in our country.

Who said caste system has been legally abolished? It is still in existence. Why, it is us who seem to be supporting it... Making reservations for each of them! First they are made to feel uncomfortable, then given luxury, and now they want more! This is not my personal remark against anyone, any community, any section of the society...but, against the system that has put an invisible barrier between people. Look at India now. We are 63 years independent. 63 years after uniting together to break from the divide and rule policy of the British. If we half a million people could battle all those years ago to free one of the most populous and largest country of the world from the hands of some pardesi fellows, why are we not breaking from our own blinding thoughts?

Don't raise an eyebrow at me. We are living in a generation where technology is ruling the roost, Indian technocrats are in demand everywhere in the world, maybe even on moon if need arises! But remember, in the same country, there are some communities who are fighting (I mean, real fighting, blocking roads, going on fast, suiciding, killing, bringing the roof down) for getting their community named under "Scheduled Castes" or "Scheduled Tribes" or "Most Backward Castes". People, look at these names... Aren't these discriminations in itself? Someone comes and tells a person - you are an OBC, and the man says "yes". I wonder what he might be feeling from within, if he ever gave a thought to the words that made up "O.B.C." .

Aren't we all born the same and die the same? Then why differentiate?
This is one tale which I tell to myself, if not, to a listener who can think rationally, just to portray the lack of competitiveness than can result out of reservation. this fellow "X" has the comfort of reservation, of some sort...

X is born, (lower hospital charges if at all any needed)
X gets easy admission into school
X has to pay less fees
X needn't score much to get promoted
X can afford to score less in finishing school exams
X has relaxations in college entrance exams
X has to pay less fees in college
X can afford to score less in college exams
X has reservation in companies' job opportunities.
X has easier way up the ladder, be it salary or promotion or what so ever.

Tell me, can a country be run by people who grow up the ladder like this?

All people face the same teachers, go through the same lectures, sit in the same class, live in the same hostel, and...and... the end product is, some people get the special treatment after claiming that they are not being treated properly and need reservation! there are states with 69% and 72% reservation in most govt institutions!

And anyway, X has the "extra option" of contesting in anything as a "general" candidate, putting the "general" people even more confused!

Its time people were knows for their capacity, not their birth, or any materialistic or non-materialistic properties that gets associated to him/her at the time of birth.

If they need to be brought out into the open, open more schools...generate more jobs! If I'm going to generate power/electricity, I don't think I will be in a position to charge it differently for people from different caste/community, or pay the employees doing the same work differently. It just doesn't sound right! Give the opportunities to the poor. there are so many rich reserved and poor "general" people who are the end product of this new nation moving forward with ropes binding itself to that strong old tree.

We are pushing the pedals of a stationary cycle. the wheels may move, but not the cycle.

Reservation is endless. South African cricket team has a reservation for blacks in the team. And Indian cricket has regional quota to fill a squad. Colleges have regional quota. You want to get into a bus, you reserve it, as cheaply as possible - put a handkerchief on the seat and claim the seat as yours! Want to go to a famous restaurant for dinner, you reserve a table fearing it may get "stolen" before you get there. Car parking - there is a VIP parking... C'mon people - this is going overboard, discrimination for cars? And like those VIPs can't hear from the rear end of the auditorium, they are always given the first rows of the shows! Not like they get the respect that they think a first row dignitary would receive!

No matter what I talk or do, things will go on continuing like this. because, either people are not wanting to change, or too lazy to change, or think differently. But me being as open as I could, couldn't put this message off any longer!

With so much fear bringing up so much divide it is "India Shining". Just imagine how bright India will be if everything was eradicated and there was a sense of unity beyond caste, creed, colour, sex, region etcetera etcetera.

But, nevertheless,
Mera Bhaarat Mahaan

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Perfection? or Satisfaction?

When you watch the image of a famous personality, your mind wanders... You have that bit of respect, the awe, the appreciation when you see someone who has a well established status in the society. You would say "Sachin is the best cricketer on earth...", or "Amitabh is the perfect actor on screen", "he has the perfect characteristics to lead the country", "he is the perfect businessman"... etc

One might wonder that perfection is the ultimate self, what one needs to be to survive with heads held high, what one needs to be to enjoy the respectful status in the society, what one needs to be to enjoy the living... I say, perfection is not what's needed, it's satisfaction that you need first.

Perfection is what others want to see in you. Satisfaction is what you must have in yourself!

Do you want all of Buffett's wealth, or do you want to lead a well settled life? Do you want Ratan Tata's industries, or do you want to lead your team to a satisfied annual result. Do you want the "perfect" life where there is no scope of improvement with only the fear of falling back or do you want to have the most satisfactory life, free from any complaints about it from your side?

You cannot be perfect. It's because, you cannot define your own perfection. You always know you can do better, you can push yourself for more. Have you ever done something which you think no one on earth can do better? Even if you did, why did you think so? Was it because you "thought" no one can eclipse that, or was it your best shot, and it was better than all your previous attempts? Of course, if you can do this much, you can always do better!

Bill Gate's who was the wealthiest person for a long time, never actually boasted about it. Nor did his competitors. Buffett, Gates, and many other multi-billionaire, multi-millionaire have promised a large percentage of their personal wealth to charity. Why? They were satisfied with their lives. They found the excess amount surplous of what they might need for generations together, and were keen to help out other beings who need it much more than the rich men may even need.

Ussain Bolt is the fastest man walking on the planet. He may as well rest for a couple of years and still see his name un-erased on the history books. But, he doesn't feel he is perfect. He knows there is always the scope for improvement. His records keep getting himself. And, though he has a penchant for excellence, for victory, he is a satisfied man. He knows what it is to win, what it is to rise from rags to riches.

Rajini, who was no richer than a bus conductor 35-40 years ago, is the face of Indian cinema today. But, have you seen anyone as humble as him. Just look at his face during any public appearance. Look at the calmness in his face, the sense of satisfaction, the humble heart that resides in his body is now in his face. Isn't he the highest paid actor in the nation, which is not that rich by itself? But he is not eating all the money. Many know about his generous activities, the prime-most of them being a school he runs for challenged children. Its the sense of satisfaction that he has with what he has achieved. He had a talent, and he has made the best use of it. He had the satisfaction, and he let many more have it.

We all say Sachin is perfect. But if you ask him, he would say "No, I'm not perfect. I'm only learning from everyone, from every match". We have not seen a better student of the game. We all know that the bars for excellence in the game of cricket, as regards batting, are set beyond the horizons by the immortal batting soul of Sir Donald Bradman. But, if at all there has been one single human who has come close to him, it has been Sachin Tendulkar. Not Ian Botham, not Sir Vivian Richards, not Allan Border, but Sachin Tendulkar. A true statement, coming from the legend of legends, Sir Don Bradman himself. Sachin knows that the world is not over. There is a better tomorrow. There is another record to be broken, there is another game to be played, another victory to taste. It took more than a dozen years for someone to equalise Saeed Anwar's record, and soon, it was broken by Sachin. Is he a satisfied man? Yes he is. Is he perfect? No, he is always getting better and better.

We want so many things to happen, so many things to be gained, so many things to be obtained... Materialistic, or otherwise. But, let us remember that, let us strive for satisfaction, not for what we or others term "perfection". What seems perfect to one eyes, is a whole level below perfection for another. So, its just you who ha to judge your mind and heart! You want to be a successful person? So be it! May you have the best things in life around you. If you feel you are satisfied, you will get the feel of what you believe one would get when he/she is "perfect". This is perfection in your own yardstick.

"Be satisfied with what you have" may not apply always, as you need that little something you aim for. But once you do get that, you will be enjoying the satisfaction! So much, that you may not be asking for much more that that. You may be working to graze further into the lawns of excellence, but this time it will be with the sense of happiness, satisfaction, contentment.

Be happy! If not, become happy!
Its a small pond, take a dip into it. You won't want to come out.